Month: May 2014

Track 40

You find out what your kid is made of when you’re running full sprint to catch the 50.  You learn things about each other when you say “go” and don’t think –>  just run, crossing streets, breaking laws, giving it a shot.

It’s not a Bond or Death situation, but it feels like it knowing the next 50 doesn’t run for two hours.  We cut across the library lawn in a desperate effort to intersect before Dupont St., but we see its boxy frame turn and roll out of sight.    Slowing to a jog we accept the truth, we missed the bus.

And when your child, still huffing for air, looks up at you for what to do next you either laugh or cry.

Fortunately, we have resources and legs. All that’s really lost is the plan which probably needed adjustment anyway.  It’ll be OK, that’s what I convey.  But a part of both of us knows we’re missing a good story or character that just got on at NW Ave.

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Track 39

At least I’ve learned some things need to be unlearned. Needing coffee in the morning or generating anxiety over nonsense are habituals that can be unlearned, replaced even if needed. Not saying it’s easy, but a clear attack-path is always present and attainable.

The trick part though is figuring out what you’ve unlearned that you need to relearn. Mental or spiritual gear, practices or reminders that worked way back when–> but have somehow slipped away or been archived in brain boxes.

Oh see sorry you/I hoped for answers, no, I’m all just about excavating and encouraging the clues right now.

Tricky remember getting some things back or unback.

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Track 38

“Prepare, but don’t plan.” 
When actor Eric Stonestreet said this on an episode of Sklarbro Country, he was talking about his philosophy for going into casting auditions.  Of course I swiped the thought for my self and made it about life auditions.  Like when your agent calls and says you have to give an update at today’s staff meeting, or when your next gig is a Tuesday of keeping a toddler/you alive/sane.  If you think you can “plan” a day with a child, you’re dumb.  I can be dumb.

What Stonestreet and I are driving at  is it’s helpful to  have things lined up and ready, practice, but don’t plan it out too much. Plans can be hard to deviate from and assume everything is always in perfect control, and when plans don’t happen the way they were laid out it can sometimes take days/years to get over.  Preparation still allows and even accounts for change, providing a certain nimbleness a blueprint does not.  This has been a foggy one for me over the years, and though I consider myself a high level preparer, I’ve often planned things in too detailed a way.  When that happens and things misalign, I misalign.  For me I’ve also found plans are perfect in my mind, but rarely do the realities match the expectations.  A prepared me however still gets to pack up the fishing box and poles, double-check to make sure the license is current, but is also OK with–>ready–> even eager for a road to be closed or the best spot to be taken.  We’ll just find a better spot or use the net to catch a story.  Got a lunch packed up either way.
This is sage advice I’m giving you that I stole.
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